I know that it’s only November, but I’ve been thinking about the New Year, my resolutions and what I really want with my life.
The past two years, I’ve had a focus for the year. Two years ago, it was Diligence. This year, Charity. I haven’t done much to talk about them here on the blog, but I’ve been thinking about them as I study the scriptures. I read the Book of Mormon looking for Charity. I have also tried to have more of these qualities in my life.
In both instances, I know that these foci are more or less life-long goals. I can’t become “diligent” in a year and then be finished. I can’t obtain charity in a year and then be done with it. They are both life-long attributes that I would like to develop.
I have been happy both this year and last year thinking about these concepts. And two weeks ago, I realized what it is that I need to focus on next year. It came to me in the following scripture:
“This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come.
For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy,
Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good,
Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;
Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away.” – 1 Timothy 3:1-5
The part that really stuck out to me was incontinent. At first I was thinking of the overactive bladder commercials. But, I looked down at the footnote and saw:
GR without self-control.
I instantly realized that this is what I need to focus on next year – self control, continence, discipline.
There was a time in my life when I had a lot of discipline. I ran 30 miles a week. I ate well. I read my scriptures and prayed. I wrote or painted nearly every day. I worked hard. It was a tough time in my life. I was recently single and a mother of two girls. There was no room in my life to be anything but strictly disciplined. If we wanted to survive, I had to do everything right. Because of my discipline, I was able to provide for my children, run a marathon, lose weight, and find happiness in the midst of adversity.
Now…my life isn’t really full of tough trials. Instead, the trial I face is that of free time and abundance. I haven’t exercised true discipline in a while.
I’m not out going completely crazy, but my life is out of balance. The lack of balance is causing me to feel upset and frustrated with myself and with my life. It is funny because I have so much, but because of my lack of discipline I feel like I am missing something.
I’m reminded of the scripture
“He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it.” – Matthew 10:39
When we lose our lives for the Lord’s sake, when we become his disciples, then we will “find our lives.” We will be filled with the confidence and peace that comes with accomplishing goals and growing closer to the Lord.
So…I need to be more disciplined.
And I’m going to make that my focus for 2012. And, since I have it figured out now, I think that I’m going to get a head start on it.
Hooray for 2012, Hooray for goals, hooray for Discipline!
What do you do to exercise discipline? Any hints? Also, have you started thinking of what your goals for 2012 will be?